so. lately i have been looking back on my xanga. i'm glad that i've saved it..it's neat to go back and see who i was. remember who i liked..the music..interests. and my relationship with God. It's crazy.
anyways. i went back to the summer and found this.
"I want to have fun. I want to not only have amazing friends..but be an amazing friend. I want to go on a roadtrip. I want to take pictures like there’s no tomorrow. I want to travel..and when I say travel..i mean travel. Not like one trip..but as many as God lets me have..i want to paint. Maybe even take some lessons. Learn a thing or two. I want to do well in school. Honestly. Im not stupid. So I don’t want my grades to reflect it. I want a boyfriend who just wants to be with me..and we just have crazy fun together.. I want to get married someday and live every day alongside not only the love of my life but my bestfriend.. I want to make the most amazing memories. I don’t want to get to college and have regrets about highshool. I want to start becoming who God wants me to be..and also who I want to be. I want to start living again.
The only thing that was holding me back..was me."
i thought it was very uplifting. and really reflects how i still feel. haha. its funny to me, that these same things are still on my heart.
& i ended with this. it seemed so fitting:
“Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.”
-2 Corinthians 7:1
i like it.
&for all of you that were on mission trip with me, go back to June 29th for some memories that will be sure to make you smile.
i had a super good time hanging out. i remember now. i just wish that God would have been the center of the trip for more of us..haha. some of you know exactly what i mean by that.(not in a judgemental way. for me too.)
anyways.
this has been fun.
p.s.
I'm really liking this whole-beingcontentwithoutaboyfriendthing. andlikingwhoiamwithoutone.
and. LOOK:
wait. before you look. read this. because its happy. and i dont want to forget.im terrified of forgetting..
-i want to be able to just start singing some old song, and have my husband start singing it with me.
-i want to go to silver dollar city or some stupid show, and end up taking a nap with my husband..
-i want my husband to buy me as many birthday outfits, as i want..(haha if its possible...lol)
-i want him to stand up in front of a whole bunch of people he's never met, and tell them im looking young for fifty, when really i turned 73, and for him to profess his love not only with his words, but give me a big kiss..
-after 53 years of marriage, you are most aware of the things that annoy you, but you somehow manage by the love that is deep within your heart.
-i want to have a big family to shower my love on..and have the BEST times..and have a lakehouse where my kids and their families can make memories like i have already created.
i want nothing more than the will of God..
now look!because even if you don't read any of that..you can still appreciate a photograph. ready:
have a b e a u t i f u l Christmas. full of love and happiness, and the truth of the season.
call me. too. i want to hang out over break.
im done. for real. this has been officially the random-est entry ever. but very happy.
Love!
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